Her hand connected with his cheek, leaving both of their skins to bloom red at their own pace. It was complete impulse to slap the Espada, as he continuously tried to figure out her way of thought and why. It pissed her off, but what pissed her off even more was the way he kept calling her ‘ WOMAN ’
“ My name isn’t WOMAN!! ”
the strike upon the cuatro’s porcelain face held no sting of pain — yet pale flesh found the slightest hint of crimson pigment. an expression of not rage, nor indignation, but mild astonishment played at usually impassive eyes. a slight disbelief the female before him had the force to lay a hand upon her keeper.
❝ it’s under aizen - sama’s orders i address you not by your name. . .perhaps i should call you a more fitting label —— girl. ❞
“It is never too late to talk, Ulquiorra.”, said Kaname “You are different from them.
That is what I can tell you… what I feel.” Kaname mistrusted every single one of Aizen’s arrancars. He knew that they were but a tool to play with to reach the man’s goals. Ulquiorra however, showed signs of utmost intellect and he needed to be FOSTERED and ENCOURAGED to reach new highs.
It was risky though, since they couldn’t let him get too strong. But Kaname seemed to feel that it was not in the arrancar’s desire to seek strength for might. It almost seemed as if this empty creature had no real goal and no real destination. Instead of sending him around like an object, Kaname found it better to teach him how to perceive life when one’s own inner life seemed to not exist. Ulquiorra would prove himself worthy of being a student and adapted quickly.
“You don’t need petty creatures to listen to you.”, he said and turned “They shall NEVER be the ones you turn to Ulquiorra. You need people who share that same emptiness, that same ideology and philosophy that you possess.”
〈 ⛧ 〉
these words being spoken by the one man
who’s sight stripped fromhim before birth —
he knows not of the quatro’s appearance,
yet he can see him like no others ever could.
his words he spoke with such solemnity,
they held meaning behind them.
not a script filled with ❛ praiseful ❜ word
of encouragementlike his creator always did ;
a pseudo tone aizen always held in his voice ——
despite his efforts, it could never compare to tousen’s.
❝ i suppose this is what i had hoped for,
though never expected.
i never found anyone, or anything for that matter,
that could truly understand exactly what harbors in my mind.
then again —— no one cared to listen. ❞
it was difficult simply ❛ opening - up ❜ on such a subject,
the espada knew not how to explain himself,
given he never had the opportunity such as this.
ulquiorra knew better than to interject
when aizen was giving his daily orders,
no questions or comments were allowed until
the assignment was complete ;
lest he expect repercussions beyond comprehension.
as a result, it always left the cuatro even more impassive than normal.
with a quiet exhale, his somber voice picked up at his superior’s response,
a sense of pure brilliance flowed through his voice.
❝ perhaps i became too desperate in my searches,
willing to accept anything that seemed relative enough to myself.
i understand now — for you speak purely of truth and wisdom.
i only ever desired to communicate with someone of intellect,
and speak of these hardships without the fear mockery.
—— i give you my utmost thanks ;
for while you cannot see, indeed you have opened my eyes
in such a way i never knew possible. ❞
❛ That often? Does it irritate you? I could close the subject. ’
Usᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴀʀʙᴏʀɪɴɢ ᴇxᴘʀᴇssɪᴏɴ ᴠᴏɪᴅ ᴏғ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ( ᴏɴʟʏ ɪɴᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴄᴇ ), ᴍɪʟᴅʟʏ ᴀᴡᴇsᴛʀᴜᴄᴋ ᴠɪsᴀɢᴇ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋs ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴏʀᴍ; there is an espada in her wake, & she doesn’t exactly know what to say – or why she is even at a loss for words. perhaps only saying she FELT as though she SHOULD be having troubles – lips seemed to carry on regardless, & withoutfalter, as would a collected, hum of a voice prevails.
the Vientitrés had always been strangely envious of the highest ranked members for some strange reason, though only times where she would at least catch a glimpse of them would feelings as such wash over her. she herself —- would never understand it was ENVY.
〈 ⛧ 〉
❝ one TOO manytimes — although irritating wouldn’t necissarily be the word chosen to explain it, it can become far WORSE than simple pestering from our fellow arrancar.
—— i don’t mind speaking of this issue, per se; simply given my visage is the embodiment of woe. i only find my patience slipping -if and when - the subject is brought up purely with the INTENT of mocking my appearance. such disdain from my ‘ brethren ’ is truly pitiful. ❞
surely he had no ill towards the female before him — yet he could practically feel the resentment building itself in his usually somber voice. prominent, porcelain fingers slipped into the slit openings of his hakama uniform, allowing for a quick shake of his head — the cadavreous figure needed to calm his nerves. there was simply no need for the insolence of the other insubordinates affect his stature.
for how often an opportunity would come where the cuatro wasn’t ordered to keep a watchful eye over the wandering espada and arrancar? no — there was an aura of some sort surrounding the female, she was more than capable of watching over herself. yet —— there was something else affecting her, a feeling of unsureness shown simply in her disposition.
Had she alarmed him? Oh–her body!! She hadn’t considered her own celestial form’s heat, and the potential it had to hurt others, she was too busy thinking about making him smile! Yet, he showed no sign of pain or discomfort–well, discomfort was a possibility but he didn’t look hurt! Nonetheless, hugs weren’t meant to last forever and the gesture of KINDNESS she intended to bring happiness was pulled away, curiosity dotting her cheeks.
“ A hug? You’ve never experienced a hug? But they’re so common! I’ll still get you to smile, one way or another, even if you say you can’t feel joy! Nothing’s impossible!! No matter what anyone says! ” She was determined to prove that fact, lips pulling into a wide, toothy grin as she spoke. Everyone had a heart, everyone had emotions, and she was determined to make sure that everyone was HAPPY!! “ As Xern Orion from the Leo Constellation and inching near Virgo, I will make you happy! And make you smile! And make absolutely sure that you feel every emotion that you were sure you could never feel! Mark my words–Mark my..uh..–I don’t know your name. “ Dang it, she flubbed that up.
〈 ⛧ 〉
a slow shake of his head confirmed he knew little of these hugs the being spoke of so much. it wasn’t a common gesture shared amongst any of the higher-classed arrancar, they simply had no use for it. but the female held such determination to make him. .smile, yet he couldn’t find such a reason to do so — even if he tried. a quick quirk of a brow raised at her battlecry, she indeed was determinted to make the espada act unlike his normal self; he supposed she could try. .and it couldn’t hurt - metaphorically speaking.
❝ i’m not familiar with these intergallactic terms you’re using. . but since i do appreciate your enthusiasm, do your worst — or best. ❞
exhaling quietly, verdant hues slowly closed before quickly reopening in actual surprise. the female before him had not known his name? . .as a matter of fact, he hadn’t known hers either. the espada was all-too used to having anyone he encountered greet him by his name. but the female was clearly not from hueco mundo, zealous was the word to define her, indeed quite the opposite from all the other arrancar.
❝ my name — is Ulquiorra Schiffer. . .we aren’t necissarily off to a good start, but before we begin again ; do tell what your name is, girl. ❞
That was what Kaname wanted to hear. A clarifying statement that told him nothing stood in the way for the mission to succeed if both just kept their pace and DETERMINATION. With Ulquiorra it was out of the question for the blind to fail at the assigned task to trace down the boy. The more Kaname thought about it, the more he was determined mak lord Aizen PROUD. Whatever he said, if this boy was a danger to lord Aizen, he was a danger to Kaname. And his justice did not tolerate danger.
“We’ll be using the garganta.”, he said casually and stepped back. Ulquiorra was the one to open it, for he could sense better whether miserable creatures awaited them between the real world and Hueco Mundo. Kaname was not using his hollowfication, and so his senses were splendid but not SUPERIOR to the arrancar who accompanied him.
⟨ ⛧ ⟩
between the two men, the mission would go off without a hitch — he’d make sure of it. their determination to complete their assignment would be a success, absolutely no returning to aizen - sama with their heads hung l o w. from aizen’s explanations, the boy was supposed to be strong - yet the espada had his doubts. perhaps he really was. .compared to any other arrancar or taichou, but the boy couldn’t take them both on, one s t r i k e upon him would send him down.
it seemed like a waste of time — but given the slim chance their target could get stronger, it was simply a risk they couldn’t take.
a quick nod of his head and a single ivory hand slipped out of the solid white pocket of his uniform ; a bony index finger extended to touch the atmosphere — tearing open the garganta wide enough for both men to cross through.
❝ i’ll lead us first - once we make way through here, we’ll be able to locate the boy in nearly no time. ❞
like orihime didn’t know that. he made it rather clear that during his last CHECK-UP on her. the healer was so tired of being told the same thing over & over. she KNEW all she needed to do was eat, sleep & use her powers to aid aizen’s army. she shouldn’t help but just feel even more useless then ever. outside of these walls, her friends are FIGHTING for their lives. trying to rescue her from this HELL. it made her sick to her stomach when the thoughts of them possibly dying was something that COULD happen. but, no. she didn’t want to think that. she wants to BELIEVE in them. but at the same time, she wished they should have FORGOTTEN her. just leave her be. didn’t they know she was doing to to protect them? — she went with ulquiorra in hopes of FINALLY being useful to them. but here they are risking their lives for HER. if anything happens to them, she just could NEVER ever forgive herself.
her form turned to face him, her hazel hues that were once so full of HAPPINESS, now dull & dark. still a little heated from their last argument, she couldn’t HELP but just be a bit blunt with her reply to him.
❝ yes i know. is that all you WANTED to tell me ? ❞
〈 ⛧ 〉
a hint of surprise expressed on his face, the slight raise of an eyebrow at her strong response — however short it may have been, he could practically see the mix of emotions radiating off her ; anger, and a touch of f e a rclouding her eyes. still, he wasn’t sure if she was trying to intimidate him in hopes of letting her be released from her confines. he had an order given to him by aizen himself, and by no means was he going to fall victim to his creator just for a pitiful mistake that could e n d his life.
the girl’s life was nothing more than just that, a l i f e. meaningless to someone like him — yet, something that could be stripped away so easily if given the command. and with how their past situations had played through, he wouldn’t hesitate to do something that’d simply shatter her sanity.
❝ i’m simply under aizen - sama’s command to repeat h i svery words. but i won’t hesitate to put my position in jeopardy just to show you how quickly things around here can change, girl.
consider your confines o p u l e n t, we’ll show you what destitute really is if you push your limits
❛ there is no reason to check in so frequently- e s p e c i a l l y when i’m not even allowed to LEAVE this room. ❜
❝ either i continue with my routine assessments—— or i’m f o r c e d to return to aizen - sama and explain your insubordination ; then maybe we’ll see what He decides to do with you. ❞
Light steps dance across the halls, the maiden having been ‘rescued’ by the one and only lord Aizen. She owed the man much, but unlike others who played to the tune of the puppeteers’ strings, she was clever and well aware of what he desired from her. It was something only she could give; Godhood.
For this was something she already had after all. For now, she plays his intricate chess game and entertains herself however she see’s fit. It’s only proper that a princess does what she wishes no? Spying her favorite of playmates, she leaps down in a graceful pounce. She nearly floats, arms circling his shoulders from behind, his name cooed from her lips with playful mirth.
❝ I. Found. You~ Ulqui~. ❞
〈 ⛧ 〉
this experience was like no other — for his creator to take in this female without word on who, or what, she was, was far beyond his comphrension. as one of aizen’s most trusted advisories, behindtousen & ichimaru, he never kept things of this nature hidden from him. should there be an important task needed to be done, ulquiorra was always his first choice — his right hand.
as per usual, he never questioned aizen, how could he on something that didn’t pertain to him? yet, he needed not to, the woman feared nothing of the espada, and it was a pleasant change to say the least.
and now, the lightest touch he’d ever felt, the female certainly knew how to sneak up on him. and it always left him on his toes, seeing as she was the mischievous type, he noted.
a porcelain hand lifted to pat upon her arms, circling his boney shoulders. his fingers cold to the touch, yet she radiated normal warmth. emerald eyes glanced towards her direction — already aware of who had called his name in such a way.
❝ that you did my dear. now, do tell what you need, — aizen - sama has called
“ Looks like I’m gonna have to resort to option two!! It’s a coming, just you wait!! I’ll have you smiling in no time! ” Cracking her fingers, the celestial being stretched out her arms, preparing her greatest hug in order to best her opponent. Bending down, the girl leaped forward, engulfing the male in her signature move “ The bun in the oven hug ” !! “ Hah, how does that feel! Feel like smiling yet? Ya better be! ”
〈 ⛧ 〉
in his short time being an espada, never had anyone, or anything, dared to partake in such acts with the somber soul; and how should he react? it was clear the female meant no visible harm, but time to think over his options wasn’t going to happen. she was closing in on him - and she demanded him to smile? it was simply a request he couldn’t complete, despite his best efforts.
as soon as she embraced him in her arms, emerald eyes widened a bit - he wasn’t sure what to say, she expressed such. .joyous emotion he’d only seen in very few other arrancar. this was all too foreign for the quatro,
❝ —— i’m afraid i’m not smiling, but this. .technique of yours is something i’ve never experienced in my entire life. if only i had control of any other emotions — i’d might feel this joy everyone is so keen on expressing. ❞
skull here!
now this isn't exactly a rules / bio thing, i suppose a mix of the two?
just clarification of what's okay and what isn't, with a bit of "about the mun" thrown in here.
one, i'm semi - selective, meaning 80% of the time i'll follow you back.
it's absolutely nothing personal, i just don't like certain things about certain blogs.
two, i'm slow at replying things, i will reply but it'll take me some time.
just 'cause i'm not used to responding at such a quick pace.
three, i'm 20 - buuuut i'm selective with who i ship with.
simply for the fact of i see ulquiorra himself being selective, i would like someone who he can relate to and trust.
four, i'm female, but i don't fully identify as female. i always somewhat thought of myself as genderfluid.
BUT i don't mind she / her or he / him pronouns. literally either is fine - i don't really care, nor will i get offended whatsoever.
it is because of your heart
that you will die.
just a little insight of my blog and my reasonings behind everything !
let's b e g i n !
well first things first, no i don't worship satan.
contrary to popular belief, i'm catholic.
i know there are things on my blog that play on satanism and religion in general -
but i'm here to tell you the satanism i speak of isn't the kind where you sacrifice black cats and drink its blood or w/e.
so no i won't cast some black magic on you or anything like that, trust me.
if there are things that offend you -
well 1) that's somewhat the point of my take on ulquiorra,
& 2) don't be afraid to ask me to tag anything that pertains to religion.
i simply want to change things up and tread on sacred territory.
now i'm aware things look iffy on my blog, and there's a good reason as to why i chose the things i chose for it ;
one being it's all in the name of character development, or whatever you wanna call it.
since we don't get too much of an in-depth explanation of how ulquiorra acts
- besides his lack of emotion - i took it upon myself to change things up.
( lest i take the same approach and blend in with other ulquiorra blogs. )
i view ulquiorra as a heretic, meaning while he does believe in religion and such,
he has different opinions on it / what's generally accepted.
now since satanism is considered a religion - he still doesn't follow it.
i use the inverted star as a show of him being unholy but not satanic.
since his resurrección is murcielago, people see bats as unholy animals for multiple reasons.
i, again, use things pertaining to religion to change up my take on ulquiorra.
simply because it adds things to him that he was missing before dying, of course.
next; aizen himself has called and ultimately played ' god ' with the hollows / arrancar of hueco mundo.
that in itself is enough to view what he does as sacrilege.
SO - that leads us to why i see ulquiorra as satan himself, God's once favorite fallen angel.
we now aizen has favored ulquiorra over all other espada, for obvious reasons.
but there comes a point where i have ulquiorra question his creator, and his purpose in life, just as he did canonically.
thus enter the religious aspect, ulquiorra turning on his god and going against him,
just as Lucifer did to God Himself.
so i enjoy playing on this for the sake of having as much originality i can possibly get whilst writing ulquiorra.
annnd with that - i'll add more things here later!